see you

Sitting in a cold dark room in which I wish I fade away.

I remember those looks enough as if three weeks ago was yesterday.

I wish I was not always in my head.

I wish I could tell the way how I felt.

I distanced myself from you but you are where my soul roams,

you're the only one who could cross the boundaries between us and I know you won't. 

I don't mean it when I say

I don't care.

I don't mean it when I say

I'm fine.

I hold myself from making that conversation 'cause I don't know what would be my next line.

Tired of facing all the highs and the lows.

The lows burning me down slow.

I'm not getting better that's something I know.

I love to see you & then I hate it too...

Your life seems like a roller coaster & mine is a ferris wheel.

Your's have an escalating flow, my has a cyclic feel.

Cheerful used to be this guy. Why did you make him a freak?

A vacant arm is all I have, if you ever felt to lean.

Do you ever think to escape & stargaze forever?

I prefer you getting onboard if you're an aesthetics craver.

My mood swings decide who I am & you dictate my moodswings.

You stole my heart way back in time when I was unbroken.

A little sympathy would work out if I think nothing could.

You made me feel violated & miserable & I am pretty sure I should.

I trembled my eyes away the only one time I think you noticed.

Girl, I saw something in your eyes, I can't tell what it is.

Tired of facing all the highs and the lows.

The lows burning me down slow.

I'm not getting better that's something I know.

I love to see you & then I hate it too...